Monday, February 9, 2015
Time To Choose
This morning I woke with a decision to make.
Yesterday I was feeling quite alone and feeling rather sorry for myself as well. When I'm not up to snuff physically it's altogether too easy to allow myself the luxury of wallowing in self pity. But I soon discovered my wallowing was not making me feel better, only worse .
This morning when I was awakened to that familiar voice inside my head, "it's time to get up" I was also vaguely aware of another voice, the voice of God, that said,
"it's time to choose."
it's time to choose?
Choose what?
"To choose the joy of My presence, or to choose to wallow."
"Do you trust Me for today's circumstances, or do you choose to go it alone?"
"I thought you didn't like being alone."
"It's your choice you know."
copyright 2/8/2015
Hello, my name is Kevin. This is my story of how I came to let Jesus in my life:
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It was a phone call that made me realize I really needed the Lord in my life....
I was in the hospital whit chest pain issues. The doctor told me I could possibly need a procedure where they put a "balloon" in one of my arteries to to clear up a possible blockage in my heart.
As you could understand, I was very scared, and didn't not sleep much the night before. The next morning came, and I was to be taken down to the room where the procedure would be performed. A friend called me. In the middle of our conversation she asked if she could pray for me. At that point and time I was up for anything that could help. While she was praying I started to feel a very warm surge go throughout my body..it was something I had never felt before. When she finished her prayer I felt, no, I knew everything would be ok. I even felt I could do the procedure myself. the procedure went perfectly, I didn't need to have anything done...no blockage.
To this day I feel I was touched by the Lord Himself.
Ever since that day I have put God in my life as my mentor and savior.
In June, 2012, I don't think I would have made it through with out Jesus in my life:
June 6, 2012, my dad passed away from his long bout with Lupus. He went peacefully as I, and my mom and sister, watched him take his last breath as the Lord took him to a better place. A place where he would suffer no more. I was devasted.
Then on June 20, 2012, exactly two weeks to the day and at the same time of day, my mom passed. she died of a broken heart as they say.
Upon losing both my parents so close together, I was trying to figure out how I was going to continue on. No, I never thought of suicide, but the thought of not having them in my life was unbearable. Besides my parents, they were my closest and best friends I will ever have. But with the guidance of the Lord almighty, I was able to cope with it and continue on. They will always be with me whereever they maybe.
Then in May, 2012, I was taken to the ER with chest pains. I was having a heart attack. They had given me a 60/40 chance of making it through the night. So they admitted me, and started the prep protocol to have a triple bypass surgery. I had to stay in the hospital for a week before my surgery came time. I couldn't leave my room or do any type of "real" activities as not to stress my heart out.
At the same time my one kidney, yes I only have one, was failing.
Time came for my heart surgery. As I was in the operating room waiting area with my sister, she asked if I was scared. I told her of course I was, but I knew I was in good hands...the hands of God.
Well the surgery was a success and I was out of the hospital in four days. From there I went to Marysville Care Center. When I first got there, they asked me how long I plan on being there. I told them I would be leaving in a week. Got there on a friday and left the following saturday. It was sure nice to be home.
My recovery went very fast. My doctor's said I recovered faster than most people. I owe that to the Lord.
I don't think I could have ever endured things that have happened to me in the last few years with all my health problems and my parents passing without Christ in my life. He has given me the strength to face those problems head-on and know I have someone in my corner when they happen.
I guess if I could sum up my life with Christ in one word, I would have to say...Control.