It started with a picture I had of You…so strong…so wise… yet far, far away.
I couldn't seem to reach You. I had a desire but it all seemed too much. "I will place you where I can visit you when I choose...to be proper you know. Not too close, and yet not too far."
I don't want to complicate things. Life is too complicated as it is. People coming into my life, people leaving; not at all sure where I stand.
Even though I kept You at a distance, You kept reassuring me that You were here to stay; that You wanted me to come closer. So very hesitant, I was; so very unsure of letting You in; so very unsure of how You felt about me. But that was it, wasn’t it? I couldn’t accept that You could possibly want me. “Look at me. No… don’t look at me. It’s hard for me to look at me, let alone someone like You. You, the perfect One."
Somehow, I allowed myself to take a closer look at Who this was that was so interested in me. When I did that, something unexpected began to happen. My picture began to change. The fantasy that I had of Him being close to me suddenly became my reality. I guess it wasn’t as sudden as it might appear. It took time, but time has passed and this is where I am; no longer alone; always with Him.
I honestly cannot imagine a life without Him. My greatest joy and desire is to get closer...ever closer.
He now lives inside of me. He loves me as no other. A greater love I could not ask for. And I will not, cannot, let Him go.
And He’s looking for you, too!
copyright 7/16/2014
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